Already Gone

Purest of Pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.










This song came out when i was cleaning up some of my old files. There was a period of time this song was on repeat all day. But that was then. A distant memory i barely recall. Nonetheless, its a nice song.

The Story of A Highlighter

As usual, if you know me well, i enjoy buying stationaries. Mayb its due to the varieties, the array of colours which captures me.

So today i ended up buying a sweet purple highlighter. I din realise how excited i could get over little stuffs like this. I figured over the years i've learnt to count my blessings, and the little things in life that makes significant impact. Afterall, its the impact and not the materials that count.

It also made me ponder over how i used to never be satisfied. Contentment seemed like a distant concept. Give me a book and i want 3 more. Give me a dress and i want them in all colours. A pair of shoes will never satisfy my shopping thirst.

By living a life like that, i've not noticed that i've been actually robbing from people, robbing from God. It saps my energy which should be devoted to many more purposeful things, it robs me of not only money, but more importantly my time.
It also blinds me from seeing the beauty of little, yet significant things.

Today, i'm gonna try to live a life of contentment. To appreciate the many many blessings that has been poured into my life, and to be that little, yet significant blessing to others.

Also, this is a random meaningful song that i'm in love with currently.

Carissa Baby

First and foremost, Happy Birthday dearest.





You're the best, baby!! You know dat rite???





To my dearest baby,
It's been quite a long journey thusfar, and although i've not been at those different significant points of your life, i thank God that he's placed you in my life, to be my friend and my sister.
On this wonderful day of your life, I wanna honour you for being a beautiful soul, for being a blessing in my life, for being there for me whenever I need a friend. And well, the picture i chose represents all the silly stuff we did together, the happy moments we had, the screams and laughter.

As much as you've blessed others, i know that God has so much more in store for you, and as you grow in every aspect of your life, i want to be there to witness all of it with you, the happy times, the stormy ones, we'll brave through all of them together. We're all ordinary people, but the difference is you're an ordinary girl with extraordinary faith, and abundant love. Through you, i've learned the through meaning of love and sisterhood.

And as much as you've had my back all along, know that i'll have urs too, whenever, wherever.

If there is one word i can use to describe you, it would be wool. Because you're warm and cuddly (hehe), and mostly cuz u can be feminine and soft like wool, but you can also stand strong like wool when made into a sweater. You can be plain coloured, a beautiful elegent woman, or colourful, bringing joy to people.

So baby, i wish you a very very Happy 21st Birthday, and i thank God for a sister who shares the same passion for the same things in life. You really are a beacon of light, and i hope you'll continue to let God work in your life and be an encouragement to even more people.
Also, we'll stalk partners for each other, yes???? hehehhe
And, rmb the house we will live together in, i'll stay downstairs and i'll throw food into your window everyday, muahahaha.....


Hugz and Kisses,
Your Hunnie Bunnie

Bee's bday

To my dearest ah bee,

You've been such a darling;

Thus, on this defining moment of your life (turning 21),

I wish you all the best in life,

And I will always love you.

We had a simple celebration for her in Tony Roma's Sunway Pyramid.

All Of Us

The bday gal with her cake; choco-licious

D, with her food.... monstrous portion, no?

On top of that, we went for a few "excursions" over the past few weekends.

Truly enjoyed it, although most of the time it was just window shopping. See, its the company that matters.

We went to Pavillion, after a failed attempt to find a watch for Ah Bee in Midvalley and Gardens.

In Manhattan Fish Market Midvalley

A reminder of how i look in class

The picture below was taken during one of the bowling sessions in Pyramid

Pasta de Gohan, Pyramid. Liked the ambience and the food was not bad.







This was a celebration of Diana's belated bday in pizza vivo, Curve

The mushroom pizza, yummy but somewhat bitter due to the baked mushrooms

American hotdogs

I just love this picture

Cooking : Part 1

The above is a picture of what i've been having for dinner for the past 3 to 4 days.


I'm totally loving it. It's healthy, easy to make, and delicious. Not to mention cheap too.



So for the ingredients you'll need :

Dory fish
Pasta (for this i choose spaghetti)
Carrots
Some romaine lettuce
Mushrooms
Dried herbs ( i used basil, but u can go for rosmary for a stronger taste)
Some black pepper corn
Pasta sauce
Olive oil
And a slice of lemon


You'll have to marinade the fish with a dash of salt, pepper corn, and sesame oil

Meanwhile, boil the pasta and carrots

Fry the fish in a pan, and later on reuse the fish oil to stir fry the mushroom


Then mix the pasta with some pasta sauce (white or red).


Lastly, everything is ready to serve. Squeeze some lemon on the fish and its done.


Easy. With all the nutrients; protein, vits and minerals, carbo, and fiber. Perfect.






Next week would be some other recipe. Eastern maybe. We shall see.



p.s. i think i'm gonna have some really sore muscles over the weekend as i went for an extremely long jog just now. Till then, i'm gonna go dish out some frozen yogurt from the fridge.

If today was your Last Day

Ever wondered what if TODAY was your last day on earth? What happens? What would you do? What would you be willing to give? Will it make a difference compared to not knowing? Would you wanna leave an impact? A legacy....




If you're familiar with the group Nickelback, here is a song I want to share.
“If Today Were Your Last Day”-

This song is also a very clear reminder that even though we’d like to think we have a long time to live here on earth, the fact is, no one really knows and there are definitely no guarantees.

Don’t we just assume we have all the time in the world? So we fritter and waste away the hours and days on mostly meaningless and generally purposeless activities that really make no difference in the grand scheme of things?


What this song really signifies is the fact that so many times in life, people stumble and never get back up, life for them ends in misery and regret. Instead of passing into eternity with a triumphant feeling of having squeezed every drop of juice out of life, their souls are weighted with the lament of all the “if only” and “why didn’t I” flashbacks of life.


You know whose life didn’t end with regret? The Apostle Paul’s. Read and reflect on what is probably the last thing written by him and recorded in the Bible:

As for me, my life has already been poured out as an offering to God. The time of my death is near. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful. And now the prize awaits me - the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will give me on the day of his return. And the prize is not just for me but for all who eagerly look forward to his appearing (2 Timothy 4:6-8).



This is a great example of a man who does not allow life to run into doldrums chasing after things in this day and culture's habit of wasting days away instead of investing into things that last eternal.



What if Paul had not live everyday like his last?
This was a question i pondered for a long while, and the shocking fact is so many times in life, it had been so easy to just fall back into the patterns of a short-lived bliss, without grasping the bigger picture.



The Nickelback song is a very good example for us to learn how to live everyday like out last.
Pay attention to the words.

p.s. i couldnt get the original video version, you should be able to view via this site : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aW5afKx35zk&feature=fvst

or alternatively just view the video below.

Running out of post titles

2nd day into using my overhauled-reformatted lappie, and it's already giving me problems.


First, my windows live messenger was unable to install, and now, i'm experiencing virus notification pop-ups by my anti-virus every 2 minutes. Imagine my despair.



It's either time for me to cut down on my internet hours, or a sign i should get a new lappie; which i hope it is the former.



Personally i dislike week-long holidays as on the one hand, it does not give u adequate rest, and on the other hand, it kinda slows you down.
I miss the fast pace, challenging days i used to face.
You know that feeling of accomplishment you get after a tiring but fruitful long day, when u finally sit back late at night, and there's actually some substance to your pondering.


These days, i find it a drag to get through my day; like how my shoulders ache because i slouch through the day, due to the lack of adrenaline rush which makes me very focused and disciplined; also like how i find it so hard to wake up each morning; also like how it becomes easier each day for me to dig up some excuse for procrastinating.



Like the physical shoulder slouching, the many excuses and procrastinating can unseemingly develop into another kind of habitual action.



Tip for all : The beginning is tough, perseverence is key.



Note to self : A little goes a long way.



James 1 : 12 - Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.

Gift Of A Friend

Wonderful song, Hope you enjoy

Love is On its Way

Young hearts
I believe that we are not far
From becoming who we truly are
Love is on its way

Dreamers
You see everything in color
While the world is getting darker
Love is on its way

So hold on another day
'Cause love is on its way
You'll find it's gonna be okay
'Cause love is on its way

It's alright you'll find a brighter day
'Cause love is on its way

Leaders
Show us how to love each other
It could help us to recover
Love is on its way

Lonely
I believe that you will find me
And together we will truly see
Love is on its way, yeah

So hold on another day
'Cause love is on its way
You'll find it's gonna be okay
'Cause love is on its way

It's alright you'll find a brighter day
'Cause love is on its way

Yeah!
Yeah!

Hold on another day
'Cause love is on its way
You'll find it's gonna be okay
'Cause love is on its way

It's alright you'll find a brighter day
'Cause love is on its way
'Cause love is on its way
'Cause love is on its way

Giving a little love away

It is normal for humans to want to experience love.

It's also perfectly humane for a person to feel flattered when they're showered with praises.

On top of that, i think its also not morally wrong for every single person to be emotionally resplendent when they're being loved by someone.

The question is, are you loving back enough?

Are you doing your level best to make the people around you feel that way; the way you feel like you're on cloud nine, like you're being swept off your feet and carried away by some knight in shiny armour to a castle in a land faraway where you'll live happily ever after?

I saw the light, under the oak

I'm staring into the deep dark night awaiting a little glimpse of the bright stars.




Those tiny twinkly lights that lit up my little soul.




I'm wishing for them to look down and whisper some little nothings, and to tell me that alls well will end well.




I'm listening out for those little crickets to assure me that i'm not alone on this cold lonely night.





And most of all, i'm awaiting for the rain to fall, to signify the breath of a new life, to shower all of us with blessings so abundant it'll leave us so fulfilled you'll never be kept wanting.




Also, most importantly, i'm patiently counting the hours to dawn, where i'll enjoy the cool breeze billowing in my hair, and the wonderful sunlight which will caress my cheeks.



I want to live in this fantasy for just a little longer. Mayb a couple more hours, and i'll be satisfied.

Orphan

A few of us decided to do an impulse thing, and we ended up watching this movie. We were quite apprehensive at first, but was convinced that since it's not a horror movie, we would be able to live with it, and come out alive.

Truth be told, i really loved the show. Well, not just because of my sadistic nature, but mainly due to the fact that the story actually has a plot.
I totally dislike shows where i sit for an hour or so and i still wouldnt be able to figure out the storyline.

This show depicts the qualms of the daily life of a normal suburb family. Many parts of the show are acutely relatable to our daily lives.
There were so many twists in the movie i actually felt my nerves twitch.

Given, what i like most is the impact it made on me. It really enlightens me on the true love of a mother.
Albeit heartwrenching, it helped me see how different people choose different channels to cope with loss.

On a scale of 1-10 on gruesomeness and violence, i would rate it a 4. * note that this is coming from a sadist who laughs when people are smashed in the head, so do watch at your own risk*

All in all, i would say it was a worthwhile movie, and i've not been watching many worthwhile movies for a while now.

Skrine - Part II and III

This would be a belated post without photos.


Basically, i've enjoyed my working experience in the Corporate department for the second week, and the third was in Intellectual Property.



For me, the most rewarding experience would be meeting with fellow lawyers and chambees and getting to know them better.



And yes, my master for litigation spent us lunch for our last day.



Mostly, i'm greatful for the willingness of the lawyers to spend time and effort to help us understand the goings of the profession.


All in all, its a great experience, and i would highly recommend it to every law student.

Skrine - Part I

My attachment in Skrine is divided into 3 parts, i.e. litigation, corporate, and Intellectual Property

So the first week would be litigation and the stuff we did.

We prepared a submission for a fictional case, whereby we are obtaining an injunction for nuisance.

Then we had to present it mooting style.

Quite intimidating, but the process was fun.

And we had to read up on a case which we were able to watch in KL High Court.

And we had a good master, which i will introduce below.

The master, Leeshih. Ok, he looks erm, you guess lar, but he's my master nonetheless. A good one, i will add. One of the best. Oh, and we shared ice-cream. Now you know why he's good.

My colleague, Steph. She's adorable, sweet and kind. And smart. Of course lar, she's studying in King's College London. Yes THE King's College. And she's British.

Did i hear a wow?

You'll be more "wowed" if u know that all my colleagues are from UK, and there're a few from King's.

Part of the Library in Skrine


More parts of it

We hang out at the library most of the time. That's where we do our research anyway.



Yes, the above-mentioned dessert that we ALL shared.

The first week, where all the interns were still around. There were 9 of us.

And that's the lounge. It's like heaven, there's food, coffee machine, foosball table, couch and astro. Cool rite?

And then, there were 3.

We're the only 3 left.

While arranging books. (ahem, i was trying to be nice by helping out ok)

I was trying to bang his head with the book. Out of jealousy. Cuz he gets to online.

The view when nobody's around.

And that's the end of week 1.

D-Arl-I-n-G's bday

D is for dinosaur, ding dong, doraemon and of couse Diana.

So, on the 3rd(ahem) August, we celebrated her bday.

(sorry i'm abit terrible in sorting the pictures, so they probly are not in the correct sequence)

Anyway, we celebrated in Fullhouse, a Korean themed restaurant.

Omg, there's a bird, spot it?!

The entrace, i really loved the flowers

The card we gave her

Dining apart

The night view of the restaurant

I just find the birds quite amusing

Welcome, welcome

I dont know why his head is cut off

The cakes we got for her

Strawberry, chocolate, tiramisu, lemon, and some unknown flavours

The birthday girl, and the waiter.. oops i mean friend.

We were all dressed in working attire becuz we all went after a long day of work

My food!!!!

My drink!!! Pretty no?

This was an outing me and D took together






We were in the same colour, unplanned..

So Darling D, I wish for everyday to be beautiful for you,

In everything you do, know that i'm always here for you,

Love you to the max.

HUggies N Kisses

What I Did This Summer

This summer was a fulfilling one, maybe not one of the best, but one of the most memorable.





The pictures will give you a rough idea of what my summer looked like.





Of course, there were other stuff that i did not take pictures of, or too personal to post up here.





I had my first taste of Klang Bak Kut Teh, after living in KL for 3 years. It was quite rewarding, as a few of us stayed over in Aaron's place. We were busy eating most of the time. Basically, it was a time of eat, sleep, play and getting alot of sun. (well, what is summer without sun)

Feng and philee at the restaurant which serves the best lala. ( I love her fan)

And then suddenly the rest of them wanna come into the pic

The infamous BKT. It was quite yummy.

Me and philee in the car. It was so HOT!!!!! or maybe its just Klang, lol

This was taken in my house. Wen Nee came back from Manchester, of course must hang out larh.

And then, and then, we had this picnic party thingie at the park near my housing area.

I don't remember who made what, but all i know was, the food was good.

Looks good right?

Helene and Jasmine, preparing the food

Our job was to camwhore and finish the food

Oh oh, and i went for victory weekend in Genting, foothill i mean.

It's through this that i learned the true meaning of being free, and the real meaning behind freedom.

And of course made a few friends.

There's chin wah at the back (she's going back to US soon), and rachael, me, and jaqueline



Then the usual hanging out sessions

That's somewhere in Gardens, Midvalley






And of course the yummy Sweet Potato Balls in the Taiwan place in Gardens

And the frequent karaoke sessions with my housemates

And the shopping, of course.

Sadly, i did not do alot of shopping this summer. Did not have the time, with my busy schedule.

That's all people. How was your summer? Hope it's fun.

Till then,

Take care

Goodbyes

We made friends 4 months ago. Had our hellos.

We greeted each other everyday, shared meals, shared the same room.

I wouldnt be very proud to announce that i'm the best roommie ever, but yea, despite our 3 years age difference, we fit in together quite well.

I will remember the yummy fruits you brought back for me, and how despite not very accustomed to air-cond, you tolerated with my disability to live without air-cond.

I will remember how we fix the cupboard together and had great laughs; and also how u're head and shoulders taller than me, which makes it so much more convenient for you to get stuff for me.

Anyhoo, my roommate of four months is moving out. It feels kinda quiet allready. Hopefully its greener pastures for her. As for me, i'll miss her presence.


Till then,

XOXO

Lost and Found

I've learned to accept loss in every sense.

Accepting loss does not mean accepting defeat. It merely means we're leaving the mulling behind; accepting the reality we cant change, but at the same time, changing the path we once taken. It's not so much about what you lose, but more about what you gain from the loss.

As time passes by, we learn to step out of the self-created boundaries and to embrace the bigger picture; the bigger plan.

So yea, dont sweat the small stuff.

p.s. nobody likes to be pusharound..

p.p.s. i'll be away this weekend... c u around soon

This is for you

=) Ok, so this is wat you get from being my friend.

But hey, u're still gorgeous, and who says lame is negative?

Yeah rite.

This post is specially dedicated to ALL OF YOU (you know who you are)